I hope your dream never dies.

I am going to turn 19 soon.

I know life gonna get me lots of challenges and problems in my life that I need to pass through.

You’re bursting with ideas, but you worry if it’s too late. Are you early or late? Is time on your side or gone?

There was a time when I thought I wanted to become a footballer. I started early and I was pretty good at it. But then I started playing table tennis and all of a sudden, I wanted to be a tennis player. I worshipped the game so much that it was all I could think about. Maybe I had a chance, you know? But then the YouTube revolution happened and I hastily declared that wanted to become a YouTuber. I didn’t know where to begin. I needed a camera, I needed to know editing and I also had to be good at speaking. I tried. But a few videos later, I settled that I was probably just embarrassing myself and I should find something more realistic.

And soon enough, everything became irrelevant. I wanted to become a digital nomad and a digital creator who could travel across the world and earn from different parts of the world. I dreamt about building something I could call my own. Something that could separate me from the rest. I can create something that can help millions of people.

I do not know if this is the right feeling but I feel like time is moving so fast as I complete my daily tasks and I feel like I am missing out on something and can do more It’s not that I was unsatisfied with my life, but I had this longing feeling that I could always do more. So I found myself dreaming about a life where I could travel as much as I could. I dreamt about a life where I could successfully run a podcast. I dreamt about being the fittest, best version of myself who could make a difference.

I know that everything seems possible when you start dreaming about it. You think you can have the physique of an athlete until you start running. You think you can make beautiful music until you see that only a couple of your friends listen to it. You think you’re ready to quit your job until it’s time to quit.

What I’m trying to say is that we are all beautiful people with a bunch of broken dreams. 

We walk past each other not knowing that we all once wanted to be someone else, someone big. We shake hands with doctors who may have once dreamt of being musicians. We drink coffee with our engineers who may have once dreamt of being gamers.

 We bump fists with the closest of friends not knowing that they too, once dreamt of a life different from the one they live.

I don’t want to believe that it’s too late for me to dream.

I don’t want to believe that time is running out.

There is so much life left to live still. So let me be immature. Let me be stupid. Let me believe that I can still learn something for the first time and that it’s perfectly fine for me to suck at it.

There’s so much I want to do. So many lives I want to live. And I’m going to love them all.

I want to write a book one day. 

I want to make a cinematic vlog.

 I want to visit Bali with my friends. I want to run a podcast for as long as I can. I want to drive the fastest cars. I want to live like a hippie. I want to find a home away from home. I want to fall in love. I want to eat ice cream with a fork. I want to feel like I lived.

Not all my dreams are supposed to make it, but I don’t want to let any of my dreams die.

I’ll write a little whenever I can. I’ll capture as many memories as I can. I’ll save up enough to travel. I’ll release an episode every chance I get. I’ll learn how to drive. I’ll experiment and explore. I’ll leave home. I’ll fall in love. I’ll eat ice cream with a fork. I’ll live.

One day, one step at a time. I’ll keep moving.

I don’t want to forget my dreams. Because the day I do, I’d have lost a part of myself that I once really wished for. 

And I think that’s the most tragic thing to ever experience — the death of your dreams before you die.

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